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the Idiot Savant (34% dark, 60% spontaneous, 55% vulgar)

your humor style: VULGAR SPONTANEOUS LIGHT You like things silly, immediate, and, above all, outrageous. Ixne on the subtle word play, more testicles on fire, please. People like you are the most likely to RECEIVE internet forwards--and also the most likely to save them in a special folder entitled 'HOLY SHIT'. Because it's so easily appreciated, and often a little physical, your sense of humor never ceases to amuse your friends. But most realize that there's a sly intelligence and a knowing wink to your tastes. Your sense of humor could be called 'anti-pretentious'--but ironically, that definitely indicates you're smarter than most. PEOPLE LIKE YOU: Johnny Knoxville - Jimmy Kimmel

Because of you

To you. Will you even read this? Will you get caught in the silliness above? This song makes me cry...and remember. So much. And it's all true. I wish it were a dream...do you read any of this?


"Because Of You"

I will not make
the same mistakes that you did
I will not let myself
Cause my heart so much misery
I will not break, the way you did,

You fell so hard
I've learned the hard way
To never let it get that far
Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt

Because of you
I find it hard to trust not only me,
but everyone around me
Because of you

I am afraid
I lose my way
And it's not too long before you point it out

I cannot cry
Because you know that's weakness in your eyes
I'm forced to fake
A smile, a laugh everyday of my life
My heart can't possibly break
When it wasn't even whole to start with

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust not only me,
but everyone around me

Because of you
I am afraid
I watched you die
I heard you cry every night in your sleep
I was so young
You should have known better than to lean on me

You never thought of anyone else
You just saw your pain
And now I cry in the middle of the night
For the same damn thing

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I try my hardest just to forget everything
Because of youI don't know how to let anyone else in
Because of you
I'm ashamed of my life
because it's empty
Because of you
I am afraid

Because of you
Because of you

I uhh...did it.

I threw him out. I told him I didn't care how long he left, or if he ever came back. Just to get out. He lied to me again. He told me he had a bunch of his stuff done today (financial aid shit again) and when I got home, the cats had "mysteriously" destroyed the paperwork. *sigh* So I told him to show it to me. He wouldn't. I demanded he show it to me...so he dug this torn up, wet piece of paper out of the trash. Which obviously hadn't been filled out. So I called him on it. And he admitted he lied. Then I went to the grocery store, cause let's face it, we had no food. I bought groceries...then on the way home, I stopped to check the mail. And there, in my mailbox, was the straw that broke the camel's back. Y'know those bounced checks he said he took care of... he didn't. I got a letter from the D.A. A FINAL NOTICE letter. for FIVE HUNDRED DOLLARS!!!!

I asked him what he was planning to do. If he was planning to get me arrested. He said he was going to borrow the money from my grandpa, and then from his Nan to pay Grandpa back.

I'm so mad I could hit him. Hard. I can't even look at him. OH MY GOD what do I do? How do I deal with this?????? I told him I would give him 24 hours to get his financial aid shit done, and get this paid...but good God I'm going to have to take off to make sure he gets it done. I cant' afford another day off this week. *freaks out* what am I going to do???

the coolest thing since sliced bread...

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I think anyway. ;)

How old am I?!

You Are 24 Years Old

24 Under 12: You are a kid at heart. You still have an optimistic life view - and you look at the world with awe. 13-19: You are a teenager at heart. You question authority and are still trying to find your place in this world. 20-29: You are a twentysomething at heart. You feel excited about what's to come... love, work, and new experiences. 30-39: You are a thirtysomething at heart. You've had a taste of success and true love, but you want more! 40+: You are a mature adult. You've been through most of the ups and downs of life already. Now you get to sit back and relax.

What Age Do You Act?

sailing away!

Well, not sailing exactly...but we're going away! Going to Toronto for 10 days. I'm SO going to miss everyone here. It's strange. For the first time in my life, I have, while I won't say lots of friends, I have a few very close friends that I LOVE. And I'm going to miss seeing them every day. I'm going to miss Steph's laugh, and Shine's giggle when I say something -REALLY- bad. LICK MY LETTUCE BABY! It's going to be strange to not be here. And not have anything to worry about. LOL! Zoe's with Julie. I hope she's going to be ok. I know she'll be taken care of. I just know she's nervous about Sugar (Julie's dog). Meh. She'll be fine I think. I know she's going to be loved there, and hell, it's just 10 days.

I really should be packing...haha Ah well. What can I say? Dan's a bad influence, I really shouldn't procrastinate. :p

Is this really Me?!

Your Deadly Sins

Greed: 100%

Gluttony: 80%

Pride: 80%

Envy: 60%

Lust: 60%

Wrath: 60%

Sloth: 40%

Chance You'll Go to Hell: 69%

You will die love and feared by many. And you'll be buried in a tomb.

How Sinful Are You?

Ever had one of those days?

Where you tried to do everything -just- right...and it mostly worked? Do you ever get worried that you're losing it, or maybe something REALLY bad is going to happen now? I've kinda had one of those days. Everything went really well today. Had a good day. Managed to not take any Lortabs for my knee, and got through the day with relatively little pain. Ok. I hurt. But it wasn't the numbing kind of pain, or pain all the way up to my hip like it was. My knee only popped a few times.

And no one got mad. We still have some "volunteers" who think I'm in charge...but I think everyone's fine with that. They know me as being in charge, and they're not going to be there much longer anyway. It was a pretty laid back day, and we got pretty much everything done. It was strange to actually have 6 employees there today. We've run so short for so long...it's just...odd. But really nice.

Shine is coming over tonight. She needs to get out of the house and not sit there and do nothing. She needs to be around people, that are NOT affiliated with WORK. People who aren't completely nuts like everyone else we work with...people who aren't going to try to screw her every chance they get. Literally and figuratively. So, she and Heaven are coming over, and we're all going out to dinner with my dad. We're going to Mia's...and we're going to have a lot of fun. I can't wait. :)

And on a more serious note, Dad's paying for Dan's residency visa. I can't believe it. In three months (maybe less) Dan could have a job. A JOB!!! I could have some HELP with the bills!!! I could fix my car and not worry about how we are going to EAT!

And on a really happy note...The Emperor's New Groove is on TV!!! :D:D I LOVE this movie!! ~bounces with excitement~

I'm outta here folkses! (not like anyone's reading this anyway)

Being a grown up sucks.

Sometimes...I just want to throw in the towel, and be a resident at my Center. I mean...they have to deal with some wonderful nursing staff, and put up with general incompetence, but really...what do they have to worry about? They can be fed if they don't want to eat by themselves, they have someone to wipe their arses when they need it, someone to come entertain them or take them TO entertainment when they want to...and all it costs them is all the money they recieve every month!! No bills to pay, nothing to worry about...sleep all day...channel surf all night...no one bitching at you cause you're late on a bill, no one griping cause you're not doing enough at work...just.....Veg.

Wouldn't it be nice if it worked that way?

Dan's currently trying to find a way to pay our last three bills this month. One is $470.81 because instead of just admitting he couldn't pay it last month, and making some arrangements, he wrote them a hot check. (another pretty on my credit) And the other, $400, because of the bullshit he pulled five months ago. Or is it six now? Anyway...the last is the Cell phone bill, which isn't any higher than it usually is. THANK GOD. But they may as well be a million, for all the money I make. It's all gone already. All of it. Even child support. And what FUN!!! we have this trip coming up. YEa...we're not paying for the trip, but we're going to have to have SOME money. Somewhere. And I'm outta ass to pull money out of. *sigh* SO....what should I do I wonder? I don't know.